I don't know, but i believe this will be my last post before Christmas... i have no idea when i would be able to book out from BMT, i've been led to believe it's two weeks from 8th December, which is 22nd December... but that clashes with the Christmas public holiday... by a slight tinge of luck and blessing, i might get 22 - 25th off... and i'm really hoping that will happen... friday afternoon come out, and monday night return... i am hoping, and praying... i heard of something called guard duty, and i don't like that to clash with christmas... and i won't want that to happen... or something else...

today is super duper emotional for me... actually it began last night... when i recalled about all the people whom i will miss... but today i went to the beach with my parents then we just walked around and enjoyed the sea breeze... and for whatever reason, the tide is sooooooo low that we saw seaweed!!! not those flushed onto the beach, but live, growing seaweed... shows how low the water level is... i thought of a tsunami, but it didn't happen...

i really don't know... really... what life would be without coming online... i've been coming online since i-don't-know-when and even in the midst of A levels i would come online all the time... now i'm gonna be away from my precious computer... i really am wondering...

but i know i'll be fine... there are people before me, and people after me... if they can do it, i'll be able to do it... and i'll come out a man... (yes trey, i'll sound more "man" than rosel at the end of it)

and i certainly hope that i don't pick up all the vulgarities and bad stuff in tekong... and i'll pray that i'll be able to maintain my relationship with God... i know i can't live without him... and i hope i won't be too tired to pray every night... at least a little... i hope...

i'll be longing for christmas... as i always has been and will be... The birth of the messiah is the mark of his saving grace upon all men, especially to me, this anxious NS pre-enlistee... lolx...