thank god for healing me... somewhat... well, at least i coughed much less and my throat no longer hurts... the Lord is good... always...

i attended the christmas service today... yep... and the sermon was nice and meaningful... the pastor spoke about miracles... about how the angels appeared to the shepherds to tell them to head towards the star where the Messiah will be born... about how the shepherds represent normal people like us (as compared to the royal Roman king or something like that)... well, we were taught that we as christians should be prepared for miracles... so that when they appear, we know how to receive them... for example, should one day god's angel come to speak to you... would you be frightened and thought you saw a ghost? or would you be proud to know that god sent his angel to convey a message to you... honestly, i would have been totally freaked out... if not for this message that was delivered... but more importantly, it's about the other miracles that we see everyday... like a person praying for good results for his exams, or something else... it's about having the faith to believe that god will do great miracles, just for us... it's really something to ponder on... and yep... we all need to have that faith, to build it up, and to really long for the miracles that god intended for us...

then i went with my parents for crystal jade dimsum lunch @ Holland Village... it was very very very nice... and filling too... i left that place bloated... as usual... hehe...

and dinner too, Beef Horfun at Geylang... and on my way there, the radio played "Friends" by Michael W Smith... (my blog's current background music)... i was sooooooo touched... i felt it was a comfort from god, telling me... well... that there are always friends around, who care and love me... even though i may have left (to a remote island called tekong), but in their hearts i'm still there... it's really really very touching and words can hardly express it... sob sob sob... i nearly teared la... if not for me too gladly singing along to the song... hehehe... but it was nice... and i really really miss my dear friends already... altho i just met up with rosel, weiyu, yanyi and quan you yesterday... lol... i haven't met minjia and trey yet!!! gRRR... soon soon soon... and my other buddies... jesse and eric... and my tuanqi brothers and sisters... ahhhhhh............ i love them all...

and thinking about her... i really don't know... from my point of view, it's just like a dance... of two butterflies... fluttering around randomly... sometimes close together, other times further apart... and it's always so shaky... and the air's misty and foggy... so much so that each butterfly can't see much of what's ahead of it... just flapping it's wing... waiting for the other butterfly to come into sight... or a beautiful flower to land on... the dance of the butterfly...

so sad that i'm going back to tekong tomorrow night... training's gonna start... and life's gonna be tough... and after so much, i've decided to qiong for OCS... to get that 2LT rank and finally that LTA rank... but first, i must pass my IPPT and my SOC!!! and as you know, benji is fat and slow... he can't run, he can't jump, he can't pull!!! he's 100cm short of the passing mark for IPPT standing broad jump, he's 3-5 minutes slow for the 2.4km run, and 5 - 6 pullups short for the chin up... and he daringly aims for OCS!!! keep on dreaming benji... it might come true... might...