going back to tekong soon... for the great ole field camp... which will last from friday to next thursday...

now, i have mixed feelings about it all... from some people, it is a fun camp where we learn a lot and operate a lot based on sections instead of platoons (so if our section is fast, we'll be slack)... from others, it'll be a tekan-ing session for our sergeants to take revenge (by attempting to steal our weapons, etc)... from some others, the punishment is less in fieldcamp then in company line; from others it's more severe...

and so, i am stranded with no idea how field camp is gonna be... one thing i'm sure, it's gonna be fun if i embrace it and intend it to be fun... and it will be fun, since my section mates are all great people to be with... i really am hoping that we'll be operating totally as a section... and we'll all work together as a section, to be the best section in apache company... hehehe... what a dream!!!

lol... ok, and i been to church today... but was sooooo distracted today by what happened yesterday and what is about to happen... as i sat in the temple of the Lord, i pondered over many questions that came into my mind... "Lord, is she really the one for me... if she is, why didn't you grant me the strength to tell her yesterday?" "Lord, why do i feel so empty without her?"... but the message from the sermon told me otherwise... the message told me to wait, and listen to God's message... and when the time is right, he will provide... and that really gave me great strength to carry on... knowing fully well that, yes, my Lord is always on time, to be there to be my shield, and to be my sword, to be my friend, and my mentor... he is always on time... i know... somehow, i recall the song: Still, by hillsongs... the lyrics say: "i will be still, and know you are god"... indeed, i will be still, and know that my Lord is God... the one and only true living god...