hmmm.. today is yet another boring day conducted by the army logistics training instutute / school of logistics... morning went there, and started our group discussion on "operation iraqi freedom"... aka the Iraq War... we discussed about how one particular united states company of maintenance troops got lost in iraq and resulted in them being under massive amounts of fire from the iraqi troops... and we did that till lunch... and after lunch were two lectures before we were dismissed today...

and today, i was told that i would be part of the planning committee for the "dining-in" at the end of our course... headed by SSG Lee, our team of about 20 people would plan for the end-of-course graduation dinner for the 120+ ppl from the course... lolx... and i was in charge of "PA System", and also stores... good or bad i don't know la... bad because i have to do alot of stuff... and for me, i have to check out how many wired and wireless mics there are, how many speakers, where are the powerpoints, how to get the songs, etc... and it's no easy task for one person... ok, i have a buddy... haven't got to know him yet, but i guess it'll be soon bahz... and the good thing, of course, is that i LOVE technology and music and video... so i would really have fun manning the audio-post and the video projection... hahaha... and make myself useful, for once... lol... but i really can't imagine myself to be a DJ... lolx... army DJ, what use is that!!! lolx...

ah... i'm sooooo tired... i haven't felt so tired before since enlistment... and it's not physical weariness, but like a state whereby my mind just gives up and refuses to contribute anything to anyone... even myself... it's like i know i should do something, yet i'm not... and i know that half a year ago, i would have enthusiastically done it without any hint of procrastination... yet now, i'm just lying back and letting the flow carry me along this army career... it's just like since SchoolOfLogistics took over, i didn't feel part of it at all... my body is there, but my heart really isn't... now, i'm supposed to be "researching" on the iraq war... and i'd very much rather sit and stare at my inanimate computer screen than to just go to google.com and search about it... why??? i didn't have this feeling when i was part of Supply and Training Centre... i felt great there... from the start of drivers' course till the supervisor course, and even through exercise "playtime"... but now, merely sitting down to listen to a lecture and sitting inside a room to discuss about this iraq war, i feel totally uninterested... i have to really force myself to stay awake, and do so by gobbling down food at incredible rates... argh... why??? i'm soooooo tired, and i really need rest... a good rest that can restore my energy back to the norm... argh...