i wouldn't say today is a great day, but it wasn't too bad either... early morning today we went for a jog... about 4+km around the perimeter of sembawang camp... haha... and i partnered with JingDa and SiYuan and ran with them... and i can only say that the both of them are crazily fit runners... haha.. JingDa just keeps dashing about as if energy was free-flow, and SiYuan ran as if there is no air resistance or friction or whatever... within 100m i was already panting and tired already... but seeing JingDa and above all, my good old buddy SiYuan, i decided to try my best and catch up with him... and that "try my best" really lasted for quite a while.. actually all the way to the mid-way mark... and even then i could still carry on, but SiYuan wanted to stop and rest... so we stopped... JingDa couldn't catch up about 300m before that... that's for spending all the energy un-wisely... haha... but at the end of the day i can really say i enjoyed myself running... because i haven't been running for a super long time already... and finally getting to run is a great pleasure indeed...

then after that we went to our individual syndicate rooms to finish up our presentation, and then we presented. After that, was national education and then field pack inspection... we were dismissed at 5pm sharp... for once!!! hahaha...

but well, despite all these, i was really not feeling very nice... friends around me all could tell.. Abdul Hafiz came to me early morning, "ben ben, why you look so sad?"... JingDa, "what's up dude? never sleep well last night ah?" SiYuan, "你怎么闷闷不乐?"... and i guess i have been like that for the past few days bahz... then i came home today, and chatted with a friend, and i realised i have been wayyyyy too stressed by all that's happening... and so, i went to my best friend for help... Jesus...

and it worked... after praying and singing praises, i felt extremely relaxed and relieved... with all my burden gone, and suddenly free again... and it felt marvelous... it really goes to show how much i need God... whenever i try to rely on my own strength, it never worked... it ruins relationships, sours friendships, and even makes myself miserable... while i was singing the songs, one by one the pieces of the puzzle just fitted into place... and as things became clearer, i wondered why i couldn't think of it on my own...