was watching high school musical again [at least my 5^th time watching it already]... because it's just sooooo nice, and quite touching too!!! and so typical disney, everything smooth and nice and perfect... sometimes i really wish that i live in such a world manz... where everyone will be so friendly, where friends stay with me through thick and thin.. and of course with Gabriella as my girlfriend... hoi!!! joking la... but i would really love to see their story become mine...

but i know life isn't like that... for now that is, although i know i am guaranteed of a much better life than that in heaven when i am with my God... life now is full of suffering, setbacks, and disappointments... i live in a world where pragmatic people thrive and loyalty seems to be itself a taboo subject... people care for themselves, and turn into economist overnight; calculating the profits or losses of making every decision, and choosing the one with the greatest profit or the lowest loss; ignoring other factors that could possibly lead to a win-win situation... in this world, the best situation for one, is I win, and you lose... if we both win, then winning doesn't really place us ahead in the game... so we have to come out with devious plots to make sure other people lose while we win... the best plan often makes the other person lose terribly and you'll be there to pretend to help... this is the world i am in, and i really detest it all... in this world, there are no wolves, but all sheeps; because there are no sheeps left, just wolves in sheep skin...

nevermind, i shall just immerse myself in the beauty of disneyland... at least it's something i can hope for... wahahaha...