went to church today, finally... haha... and went to attend the main service instead of the youth service... to see my friends getting baptised today, and to reminiscent a year ago when i was kneeling there under the hands of the pastor... and as i pondered, what has happened over this year... i really see much happening... and honestly i see my spiritual life going up and down, just like a stock market... the ups would be of course the greatest time in the year (getting A level results, getting into NUS, and also the time when god blessed me to let go of the girl in my dreams without the pain that i would have experienced)... the downs (NS, the initial part of letting go, the times when i was super duper busy with the driving course)... and now, as i compare back, i've really learnt alot, and i know what wonders my god can do for me, and also learnt to better worship him... but i can only say that i've only placed one single step forward in our relationship... just slightly better than a year ago, but there's much space to be improved on... so as i looked ahead, i really really want to get closer to him, to know him much more, and to know and understand not what he can do for me, but what i can do for him... i'll be trying hard, i hope...