it's really sad to see friendships fading away like that... eight months after the end of the last A Levels paper, we've already gone into so diverse ways... even friendships whom we thought would last through eternity, faded away as quickly as the rest... names barely bring back faces anymore, and how can i even hope for something more???

i really really really miss my good pals like quan you, eric, jesse and xuecong... though sometimes they are really irritating... like eric with his vocabulary... they are really good company and it's those things that bonded us together... and yet today, all three of us, full-time national servicemen, gone into three very very very different places... xuecong got into SCDF, eric SISPEC, jesse combat engineer... and me, army logisitics... and quan you??? all the time we spent together in LT5, in the canteen, with the Interactors; and now he's in NUS Medicine...

and even those who are occasionally there... like andre, xingloong, bill and weiting... once in a while, we'll have something random to talk about and we can go on and on about them... yet today, nothing random comes out for eight months because we hardly even see one another!!!

and the girls too... like weiyu and yanyi... and dinah too... we've skipped fahy's lessons together, and sat at the benches at the grandstand just talking nonsense, we've sat at the corners of lecture theatres and poking one another when either one falls asleep, and we've had countless meals in the canteen together... and now, we've gone into so many different paths that lead, with incredible possibility, to greater and greater distance apart from one another...

not that i am sad solely because we all went different paths... but i'm sad because we went our own ways without looking back... none of us bothers to contact one another, none of us actually has anything in common to talk about anyway... sometimes i really wished for the whole bunch of us to gather together, just for a single 24-hour slot in our lives... to really catch up with each other and really appreciate one another better... and so, from that 24-hour onwards, we'll be closer to one another... yet that is theoretically and practically impossible...

what use is it, for one to lament about all these after the clay has been hardened and the tiles set? none... but it's just my inner feelings that seems to overwhelm me so much... sorry, just being very random again...