i really wanted to drop you an sms; to tell you how much i missed you, to let you know that i'm still longing for you... and if that's not possible, i wanted to just send you an sms: "hello, have you been let off from work already??? how have you been??? is school still great???", just to be able to receive an sms from you... it's been nearly 7 months, but the fire just can't seem to be quenched... indeed, life sucks... why does absence have to make the heart fonder; why does nature work in reverse??? why the freaking newton's 3rd law??? if i could run a marathon to get a call from you; i'd do a full triathlon for another additional minute with you, even if it means that i have to train very hard for it... i know that it'll be worthed every drop of sweat that rolls down my cheek... but it just doesn't work out that way...

thanks esther for just being there for me... i didn't think that i could escape from the whirlpool of chaos that's gushing through my heart then... i didn't think i could even stay afloat... but through you, the words of our Lord brought me peace and comfort, and to let me know that our Lord has plans for us; plans to prosper us and not to harm us; plans to give us a hope and a future... once again, thanks for being there... i really appreciated it...