i finally have a day to myself, and my family... the past few weeks from 27th Feb has been hectic, with very irregular working hours... even saturdays were wasted returning back to camp, et cetera.. my job scope has changed from counting numbers, to crunching the numbers into charts and tables, to supervising the 4 clerks under my "command" to count and crunch numbers, to working with all the commanding officers to liaise with them on how to maximise the use of our drivers without overtaxing them.. i've shifted training dates just by a few clicks on the mouse, and also cancelled training just by a few words from my mouth.. of course, it's the COs who make the final decisions, i just do the suggestions... through this, i've came to know all of them very well... they became regular visitors to my office, coming in and planning about our transport fleet during this period of operations...

yes, it's terrible that mas selamat has escaped; but for me, it's also a good shift away from the normal CTOC reports and stuff.. i now lead a life that's unbound by laws - i need not attend roll calls, i have people packing breakfast, lunch and dinner for me and i come and leave any time i want... but of course, that also means a lot of responsibilities... at 8am the section has to complete the crunching of data to send out to all the operations centres for them to plan their next moves; and by 7pm we have to send out the evening reports, for the same purpose... on days when there's shift change, we have to be extra careful to make sure that the units do not overuse our drivers, and to make sure that they are not over-demanding... it's not that rosey here at the headquarters afterall.. but still, it's a fresh change.. and i like this change... it's called looking on the bright side of life...

of course i can complain about having meetings at 6pm and lasting till 10pm, and about rushing from morning to night and having only 10-20 minutes for meals, and also about the stress that comes down from our superiors that force us to make sense out of large amounts of numbers, to make 6 sigma charts (of which none of us have any idea what 6 sigma is all about in the beginning), and to present the data that is easily digestible to the big brother next door...

but i'm not complaining, because time passes by so fast that before i know it, the sky is dark and i'm returning home already... without much thought, it's already 9 months left till i finish national service... the past 3 months passed by so fast, that sometimes i really wonder whether i have lived this life that i think that i am living, or whether i have simply dreamt it all away... or maybe i'll just wake up some day and find that i'm still in CJC studying physics, chemistry, mathematics and general paper...

i sure hope that all these ain't a dream, because i'm certain that if i were to sit for the A levels all over again now, i would score straight Fs (or is it called Ungraded now?)... and i won't want to start worrying about my uncertain NS life, just like i did back in JC... life is good, just that i'm getting older.. but it's still good... so far... and i thank God for it...