sigh... i'm getting ulcers on my tongue... and gaining lots of weight fast... even my extra fat dad is saying that i'm gaining weight fast... and i don't like it a little bit... it's just the stupidity of man, ain't it... our mouths proclaim that we want to loose weight, yet it's that same mouth that keeps swallowing all that junk food and excess calories that we know we should not have... and after that swensen's meal last night, i'm getting ulcers on my tongue... gRRR... it's served piping hot, and it's eaten piping hot too... yar, what a fool of me huh... should really have taken esther's advice and wait for it to cool down a little bit more...

and life on the fast track is really bad for me... i recall my previous post on my life on the fast track... taking a quote from esther, it's like i go too fast that i know that there are grasses on the field, but i won't notice the flowers there... in other words, i've became insensitive... and it's really true... and i hate this character of me very much... i really need to learn how to separate work-life and the other part of my life... yes, during work speed and efficiency is important... but outside work, speed and efficiency makes me very much like a robot... i do things even before i know that i need to do it, and i cut the paths of people before i even take a look at them... if only i could just slow down and start noticing people... and start seeing the flowers in the field, and to see the beauty of knowing that the yellow withering field is actually one blossoming bountifully with sunflowers... i have much to learn, really...